As far as I remembered I knew Han Xiang (湯漢祥) since
I started crawling. He was like my shadow. He was born a week after me. In the
neighbourhood, people called him ‘Pig Intestine’ (豬大腸 Xiang sounds like intestine in Cantonese.) and they
called me old crab shell. (老霞殼 Xia sounds like crab and I often wore a vest, so it looked like I wore a
shell all the time.) We were good friends until I left Vietnam. We used to play a game – a
queen and little pawn. I was the queen and he was the little pawn. He would bow
to me and say: “My dear queen.” He then asked me to give him a kick. He was his
guilty pleasure. We used to play husband and wife. I cooked and he ate. I had miniature
cooking set which I could actually cook real food. I often pinched my mum’s
food and charcoal to cook up a feast for him. It filled me with such enjoyment
watching him eating my food. I was not sure if my food would cause him an upset
stomach. When we played hid-and-seek with a large group of children, he never revealed
where I was hiding. There was once when he found me, but he pushed my head down
and walked passed to find another one. He was a very protective friend.
Whenever people bullied me he would stand up for me. We spent many hours
together after school playing roller skating. We played chasey on our roller
skates. He often comforted me when I felt miserable. I told him almost
everything, even my first love with Tran Sinh Duc. I think he got sick of me
when I kept talking about Tran Sinh Duc. When there was a sunny day, we would
take the long walk home. We walked passed a vegetable farm and he would pick
some flowers for me. Whenever I eyed on someone’s toys, he would win them over
for me. We often snuggled up in my parents’ bed and talked forever. I didn’t go
to his house that much because his mother and brother often made fun of me and
called me his little wife.
There was once after school, I waited outside Han Xiang’s
school. (His school is about 10 metres away from mine.) There were three boys
(Tong Tieng Hung, Chau Gia Cuong and Hua Binh Huy) followed me. I think they had
followed me for a while to see what I was up to. When they saw me with him,
they approached Han Xiang and asked about our relationship. Han Xiang replied
that it was none of their business. He also told them to leave me alone
otherwise he would do something. The three boys teased me next day saying he
was my boyfriend. I told Han Xiang about this and he laughed without any
objection.
The most priceless memory that I can never forget,
was when he taught me how to whistle. He took many nights to teach me how to
whistle, showing me how to form my lips and my tongue in the position to blow
out a sound. I was a bit thick in this. He also taught me how to play table
tennis.
When we were about 13 years old, he became very
shy. He told me to walk home alone when we got close to our houses. He was
conscious about what other people would say. To be honest, I think he reached
puberty. I remembered one morning I noticed his voice had changed. I asked him if
he had he caught a cold. His face turned as red as a tomato. Although he began
to keep a distance away from me, he would let me jump in the queue whenever I
had to queue up to buy food or stuff from the communist. He would pick the best
piece of charcoal, fish, bread, rice or soft drink that I like for me before he
could pick for himself.
On the night before my family escaped from Vietnam,
my age group had a meeting in the local council. The intention of that meeting
was to designate people to be watchdogs for those who wanted to sneak out of
Vietnam. Han Xiang was assigned to watch our house. I was assigned to watch my
next neighbour. During the meeting, I looked at him and wanted to tell him
about my family’s escape plan, instead I swallowed all the words that I wanted
to tell him. Next morning before I left our house, I saw him walking passed our
home. I called out to him: “Hi, Pig Intestine.” “Yes?” he replied. We stood
there and that moment just froze. I couldn’t speak; I was holding back my
tears; I wanted to give him a hug and said goodbye but I didn’t. I put on a
fake smile and said nothing. He gave me a deep worry look and walked pass me.
That was it. That was my last time to see my best friend ever.
I reconnected back with him after I settled in Australia.
I miss him very dearly. Whenever I walked from school back home, I missed my
companion. I miss how he was so protective of me. I missed his jokes. I miss
his unconditional love. I miss his warm smile. I miss my childhood soul mate.
It is wonderful to have a soul mate.
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